I feel so much anger. Anger that my life has to come to this turn. Angry I have to start again. Wondering why things cant just go my way ugh. Angry at my husband for breaking his promise to always be there. Angry that people just cant be trusted. angry that I am yet to ever have a love reciprocate the love that I give. I know people say these type of experiences are 'life lessons' but I hate that expression. I believe it is really just a cop-out because we cant prevent having to deal with it.Angry because I loved his family and am close with them,Angry that I wont be affiliated with my husband any more. Angry that I never forsaw this day. Angry that I was not prepared. Angry that perhaps...just perhaps, I'm reaping what I sowed in a sense.
Jeena I am sorry for your loss. It is good that you are expressing your feelings. I experienced a divorce after 25 years of marriage. Divorce is like death. You experience the same stages of grief as someone passing. Journaling and reading your thoughts and emotions are steps to healing. Sending you positive love in sisterhood.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the kind words. It has been very tough.
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