Day 16

I believe in moving on. I believe that it is the best way to cope with unhappiness in the present. I refuse to spend years in mourning. I intend ( and have already been laying the blueprint) to live a full, happy life. I intend to continue to look good and be good. I refuse to let this moment define me any more than it has too.

Day 15

Lets talk spite.... you will see it like never before. It was so shocking to me and my family to see how hurtful someone who had claimed to "love" me could be towards me. Saying things, sending mean heartless texts, lying just to mention a few..... prepare yourself for war. Perhaps you hope they will stop the charade and repair your marriage. I can be honest and say I often wished he would.. But that day never came.

Day 13

Looking into your spouses eyes and seeing nothing is often such a painful experience. I never could imagine seeing such a void in my husband's eyes, but it is what I witnessed the day he and I met with my parents to break the news. I never agreed to divorce. I wanted to reconcile, but it is as if there is no love inside of him for me anymore. Its crazy how you can marry someone, and end up being complete strangers in the end. Very very sad.The irony of the whole thing was that when we went to my parents house, they had our pictures proudly displayed all around the house. My parents were so proud of the all star wedding they gifted my husband and I. I looked into the pictures and remembered each moment that was captured. The moment I was in was nothing like the ones of the pictures. I instantly wished for those moments.. wished I could have seen the future and fixed it. :-( :-( :-(