Day 23

Oh God.... the embarrassment. You cant even put it into words the cringe whenever someone asks you about your 'husband' and then go into 'Oh my! I'm so sorry to hear that" whilst you feel the snicker inside. The whole divorce experience has been beyond embarrassing to me. People were jealous when we married and hoped for the worst, and here it is coming to past. It is the prideful person's nightmare. Just remember although it hurts tremendously now, over time it will lessen.At least that is what they tell me. I fell that taking control instead of trying to ignore it also softens the blow. People will talk, but by taking control of your situation you limit the speculations. In my case I went as far as to make a movie and release it on YouTube to express my side of things. I refused to be silent in all of this. Ive chosen to instead become a resource.

Day 22

Keep your routine... don't lose yourself in despair. It is certainly easy to do with all the stress. Easy to quit eating, quit going to the gym.. stop maintaining yourself, but you have to keep it together. Don't give him or any of the hecklers the satisfaction. The fact of the matter is you have to rebuild your life, you have to create a new regimen. Using what you can of your old one can be helpful in this. Once you get out of the positive things of your routine, It can be difficult to get back to it such as: going to church or working out, so preserve what you can.

Day 21

I dont care what anyone will tell you.. the pain of heartbreak is real.. it has broken me down on so many nights. I dread coming home to my empty apartment, and remembering the good and bad of home. I have sobbed my eyes out, spent sleepless nights, and the like behind this divorce. I never ever want to encounter anything like this in my life. Even though I sometimes feel that were not compatible.. your spouse will still grow on you. After all at the point you married them, you had honestly believed you would spend the rest of your life with them. Even at the point over a year has passed, I hate to admit that I still have moments I ponder on things, but I focus the majority of my time and efforts on how to enhance my future, and how to find love again.

Day 20

You will feel inadequate. You will feel worthless and not beautiful. As a woman we measure ourselves by the man we can attract and keep. Somehow, you will feel responsible for him leaving you and it will be devastating. You may have held responsibility in the demise ( I can be honest and say there were things I did),but it takes two. Do not bear the entire weight because it must be shared. Reconcile the things you did with yourself , and improve for future love and relationships.