Day 29

There is a point in which you will stop being the victim. You will stop letting your (ex)spouse have so much power in your life. Unfortunately the time in which you determine this can fluctuate between months and years depending on you. Perhaps it is the fact that my breakup and everything is happening around the new year that helped me reach that point. I decided that I will move on and leave my fate in the hands of the Lord. If his will be that my husband and I will reconcile, I will let God deal with it, but as for me, I will move on and focus on God and my personal progress. I will not beg my husband to reconsider, I will not cry. I will not expect more from him than he can ever give. He is simply a man and God is greater... no need to invest so much hope in another human.. After all there are plenty to go around. Whoever came with the idea that there is only one love for you is crazy, there are clearly more than one man to every woman.

Day 28

I do worry finding someone as eligible as my husband. Handsome, smart,hard working... I will have to leave it up to God. I hope that my next relationship will have love in it though. The kind of love that will last me the rest of my life. The type of love that calls when you are late getting home from work, or stands by you when you are sick. The type of love that comforts you in sadness and revels in your happiness. Ultimately the type of love that will never turn their back on you, never leave you alone, and never leave you; only separated by death.

Day 27

Do not let divorce destroy you.... do not hold onto it. Do not become the woman still talking about her ex five years from now.. Try as hard as you can to let it go. To create the new you. Do not fall off. Do not give in. Remember, no matter how far ago it was, who you were before him.. and that you can re-emerge. I have never in my life been so conscious of coming back strong. I will be relentless in it, although I know it takes time.

Day 26

I will encourage you to take an aerial view of your marriage. Take responsibility for the things you did wrong. I doubt you were blameless. Both contribute. Try to reconcile and make things right if possible. it may be worth your fighting.regardless if you can save it or not, self assessment can always be beneficial for the future. No one wants to keep making the same bad choices over and over.

Day 25

For some reason, my husband seems to think that my life is not going to go on after him. He seems to think that anything that I do regarding my own improvement is centralized around him. Its hilarious to me that some honestly think that you will not survive without them. I literally have been married only 2.5 years, but have lived decades. I can assure you, life does indeed, go on, and it will go on for you too. I look forward to blowing up in success, and finding a wonderful loving mate to share my life with.