Never ever bad mouth him in public... Never act like he was the most repulsive person in the world. After all at a point you DID love him.. and you DID make that choice. You will be tempted to curse him. You will want to inflict pain on him for all the disappointment you have, but do not. It makes you look immature and childish. I can take pride in the fact that I tried to handle is a ladylike as possible. My character is strong and resilient.
Saturday, October 8, 2016
Day 74
I carefully watched as one by one my "in laws"deleted me off Facebook. It stung me to the core. I thought we could at least be cordial... It's not as if I ever made my ex look bad or slammed him in the public eye. I have to admit this is what drove home the reality of the breakup... Just watching how quickly I have been swept under the rug. I expected so much more from them...very very saddening...
Day 72
Don't pretend to wish them well... because I don't. I want this to be as costly and painful to him as it has been to me, and that's simply the truth. The way he was able to walk away from everything we had makes me seriously doubt any love. How can anyone ever be so spiteful to the one they claim to love. How can real love hold on to grudges??
Day 73
It will astonish you just how quickly all the time,effort,emotions,and money you spent on someone will evaporate into thin air. It has been nearly a year since he completely cut me off and never set foot back into the apartment we once shared. I don't even remember him nor the sound of his voice. Looking at pictures are like looking at a memory you can't recall. I don't remember any of it. Sometimes when I wake up I think its a joke or a bad dream. That I really didn't just waste these important years on a selfish bastard like that. Wondering what I ever saw.. or how I could overlook such traits? Was it me.. or did he just masquerade as something he was not?
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