Sometimes I experience real moments of anger, and I feel used. When these bouts come over me I console myself with one of my life's most comforting theories: Human Nature. When I was younger, I used to get so hurt and offended when misfortunes would take place. I would feel so slighted and wonder why it was that certain individuals felt like they could do certain things to me. As I grew up, I surmised that it was just human nature and the way we are all socialized, especially in the capitalist society of America. In America nothing is particularly sacred and people are willing to do whatever it takes to pursue the American dream. They sacrifice love,time,family,health, and spirituality all to chase the almighty dollar. In life there are two categories: givers and takers. Givers give from a deep place in their hearts. it is like water for them. They long to see their friends,family and mates pleased and satisfied....for the taker this is like an unlimited goldmind, and it usually doesn't end well. I have worked so hard in my life to protect my heart once learning this truth. I can honestly say no one ever had more access to me,my heart and my wealth more than my husband. However, I noticed early in the relationship (of course after marriage) that my depth was not matched. Fortunately or unfortunately I began to withdrawl. It has always been in my nature to do so if I feel the disconnect. At this time, I can honestly say I dont hate my husband. I charge my failed marriage to human nature because people can only get what you give. I guess im thankful I didnt give more than I could recoup.
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