You will feel a part of you is missing for a long while. You will think of them on certain occasions. You will have moments where you want to share things with them, but will them be reminded. The day of my divorce hearing... I didnt even bother to attend the court. I didnt want to see him. I didnt want to cry. I didnt want to see the coldness in his eyes. I skipped it, and let the cards fall where they may. I woke up the day after angry.. angry about this situation. Angry that he had abandoned me. Wanting to escape my new life.. because Im so overall nervous about how things had worked out. I begin to notice that mutual friends and family had deleted and blocked me from Facebook, although throughout the entire process I was beyond ladylike and respectful. I felt like a shunned individual. smh. I believe the worst thing about it was that I never wanted it.. I never wanted to be a divorced woman, and have to start all over again... much like the course of our whole marriage I was subjected to things taking place that I didnt want....
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