Today was what should have been my three year anniversary. It passed slowly, and I received no call or correspondance from my estranged husband. I wasnt surprised really. He didnt bother to call on any of the holidays so I didnt expect it. You all would be proud of me though cause I didnt cry. I decided not to bring my angst into the new year. I decided not to continue to cry over someone who is not crying over me. Your grief in many cases is a descision that you choose. I decided that if I happened to learn that I would die soon.. I didnt want to spend too much time wallowing over someone who doesn't love or care for me. We always say if we knew our end we would live differently. I have just decided to actually apply that mentality to my life and in this new year. :-)
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